A beautiful poem

It doesn’t interest me
what you do for a living.
I want to know
what you ache for
and if you dare to dream
of meeting your heart’s longing.

It doesn’t interest me
how old you are.
I want to know
if you will risk
looking like a fool
for love
for your dream
for the adventure of being alive.

It doesn’t interest me
what planets are
squaring your moon…
I want to know
if you have touched
the centre of your own sorrow
if you have been opened
by life’s betrayals
or have become shrivelled and closed
from fear of further pain.

I want to know
if you can sit with pain
mine or your own
without moving to hide it
or fade it
or fix it.

I want to know
if you can be with joy
mine or your own
if you can dance with wildness
and let the ecstasy fill you
to the tips of your fingers and toes
without cautioning us
to be careful
to be realistic
to remember the limitations
of being human.

It doesn’t interest me
if the story you are telling me
is true.
I want to know if you can
disappoint another
to be true to yourself.
If you can bear
the accusation of betrayal
and not betray your own soul.
If you can be faithless
and therefore trustworthy.

I want to know if you can see Beauty
even when it is not pretty
every day.
And if you can source your own life
from its presence.

I want to know
if you can live with failure
yours and mine
and still stand at the edge of the lake
and shout to the silver of the full moon,
“Yes.”

It doesn’t interest me
to know where you live
or how much money you have.
I want to know if you can get up
after the night of grief and despair
weary and bruised to the bone
and do what needs to be done
to feed the children.

It doesn’t interest me
who you know
or how you came to be here.
I want to know if you will stand
in the centre of the fire
with me
and not shrink back.

It doesn’t interest me
where or what or with whom
you have studied.
I want to know
what sustains you
from the inside
when all else falls away.

I want to know
if you can be alone
with yourself
and if you truly like
the company you keep
in the empty moments.

- The Invitation by Oriah

thanks Miss. Blake

Movie time #4: Immortals

Ro and I saw this movie last night and I am glad that we were able to watch it on the big screen. This film had a contemporary representation of greek mythology that was fresh and understood, the actors were great eye candy, there was love, loss, great fight scenes, an evocative score and good acting and dialogue. I thought Mickey Rourke made an incredible villain.

However, there was one thing that kept taking me out of the film that I found distracting yet funny. But before I reveal it to you, can you guess what it is? It's shown in the trailer above.............. It was the use of crustaceans. King Hyperian's (Mickey Rourke) helmet resembled a crab claw and other masks of King Hyperian's army were also reminiscent of crustaceans. I wonder why the director or costume designer chose crustaceans. I laughed every time King Hyperian was on screen with that helmet.


see... funny, isn't it?!
Here is some information I learned after watching the film:

-Zeus is played by Luke Evans who also played Apollo in Clash of the Titans.

-The Titans, also known as the elder gods, ruled the earth before the Olympians overthew them. The ruler of the Titans was Cronus who was de-throned by his son Zeus. Most of the Titans fought with Cronus against Zeus and were punished by being banished to Tartarus. During their rule the Titans were associated with the various planets.

-The Olympians are a group of 12 gods who ruled after the overthow of the Titans. All the Olympians are related in some way. They are named after their dwelling place Mount Olympus.

-These are the 12 Olympian Gods:
Zeus
Poseidon
Hades
Hestia
Hera
Aris
Athena
Apollo
Aphrodite
Hermes
Artemis
Hephaestus

Before I go I'll leave you with these...

The Romantics

whenever i see a movie i like, i research things that i liked or want to know more about. this movie has not only turned me on to the romantics (poetry) but i am also very intrigued to read the book now. below are some quotes by the romantics that i got from this delightful find .


"Faith is a passionate intuition. "- Wordsworth

“Fill your paper with the breathings of your heart.”- Wordsworth

“Life is divided into three terms – that which was, which is, and which will be. Let us learn from the past to profit by the present, and from the present to live better in the future.”- Wordsworth

“Poetry is the spontaneous overflow of powerful feelings: it takes its origin from emotion recollected in tranquility.”
-Wordsworth

“To begin, begin.”- Wordsworth

“I am certain of nothing but the holiness of the heart’s affections, and the truth of imagination.”- Keats

“Those who restrain their desires, do so because theirs is weak enough to be restrained. “- Blake

movie time #3 : The Romantics

when i first saw the preview to this movie i really wanted to watch it because i myself am a romantic and i am a sucker for a movie preview with a good song. not that long ago i talked to my dear good friend (sister from another mister), h4/5eidi, and she told me she wasn't too impressed with the movie. this of course intrigued me more, so i moved this movie to #1 on my lovely netflix que.

finally took some time today to watch it, i must say, i liked it. (even though most of the reviews bashed it) i'd give it a 4 out of 5. the characters were more then two dimensional, i enjoyed the plot, script, location, setting and music. i also will give katie holmes a cheers to her acting performance. bravo katie! bravo!

"Listening to music.
Driving with no destination.
And I guess this,
this beautiful mess
is best ended without notification.
Probably better." - laura (katie holmes)

About moi, according to Keirsey

pic circa 10|2007

Idealist Portrait of the Teacher (ENFJ)

Even more than the other Idealists,Teachers have a natural talent for leading students or trainees toward learning, or as Idealists like to think of it, they are capable of calling forth each learner's potentials. Teachers (around two percent of the population) are able - effortlessly, it seems, and almost endlessly-to dream up fascinating learning activities for their students to engage in. In some Teachers, this ability to fire the imagination can amount to a kind of genius which other types find hard to emulate. But perhaps their greatest strength lies in their belief in their students. Teachers look for the best in their students, and communicate clearly that each one has untold potential, and this confidence can inspire their students to grow and develop more than they ever thought possible.
In whatever field they choose, Teachers consider people their highest priority, and they instinctively communicate personal concern and a willingness to become involved. Warmly outgoing, and perhaps the most expressive of all the types, Teachers are remarkably good with language, especially when communicating in speech, face to face. And they do not hesitate to speak out and let their feelings be known. Bubbling with enthusiasm, Teachers will voice their passions with dramatic flourish, and can, with practice, become charismatic public speakers. This verbal ability gives Teachers a good deal of influence in groups, and they are often asked to take a leadership role.Teachers like things settled and organized, and will schedule their work hours and social engagements well ahead of time -- and they are absolutely trustworthy in honoring these commitments. Valuing as they do interpersonal cooperation and harmonious relations, Teachers are extraordinarily tolerant of others, are easy to get along with, and are usually popular wherever they are.
Teachers are highly sensitive to others, which is to say their intuition tends to be well developed. Certainly their insight into themselves and others is unparalleled. Without a doubt, they know what is going on inside themselves, and they can read other people with uncanny accuracy. Teachers also identify with others quite easily, and will actually find themselves picking up the characteristics, emotions, and beliefs of those around them. Because they slip almost unconsciously into other people's skin in this way, Teachers feel closely connected with those around them, and thus show a sincere interest in the joys and problems of their employees, colleagues, students, clients, and loved ones.

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Remembering my mommy : 4 years without her

- when i was younger 5th to 6th grade, to be exact, my mom and i would listen to her cd's pretty loud in the morning while we got ready. the cd's we had in rotation were her mowtown, mary wells and diana ross compelations, blues travelers, mary j. bliege and TLC (crazy.sexy.cool album)

- she had her morning routine down. she'd get up, pee, make her coffee, smoke, take a shower, blow dry her hair, put rollers in her hair, watch Good Day LA with Jillian Barbarie, Steve Edwards, and Dorothy Lucy while applying her make up, paint her toe nails (according to the color she was wearing), sometimes make breakfast, take her meds and then smoke again as she was walking out the house

- before she would walk in the house (after work) after being dropped off or picked up she would sweep our walk-way

- she would have friends that traveled buy her coffee mugs ( a tradition i now carry on)

- every now and then, late at night, she would ask me to make her an over easy egg sandwich with mayo

- one night i awoke to the sounds of my mom crying, i got out of bed and walked over to her bedroom to hear more clearly, after i confirmed what i was hearing i walked back to my room, laid in bed and cried to myself

so today makes four years since my mom passed away and i am a mess mentally. i am lost in nostalgia. i work at focusing my mind on the present and the future because when i take a mental time machine to the past i can get caught in a washer machine of sadness, longing and regret. it's fortunate for me i know that that's not healthy so like i said, i try to focus on the present and the future. what kills me is my sense of family. she was the only constant person in my life until she moved out and decided to live her life free from all past responsibilities. i feel that her past baggage, me included made her too sad. i was a reminder of her good and sadness. emotions she was not able to accept and deal with. though that seems harsh, i do believe it was reality. i miss her sooo much. i miss my family. she was my family, she was the one i spent all my holidays with, attended my performances and graduations, made me feel unconditionally loved. i long for a family and look very forward to starting my own with roland. i promise to make my children feel the way my mom always made me feel, LOVED and wanted. i would always over hear my mom talking about me with such pride and when i would meet people that she had talked about me to, they would always complement me. she was my biggest supporter. i am truly blessed to have had her in my life as long as i did. she gave me enough love, confidence and drive to accomplish my goals. i love you mommy.

Movie TIme #2: Bobby

i finally got to watch this film... 5 years later. i found it to be more like a actor showcase then a coherent film. most of the characters were just briefly brushed upon. however, those characters that did get more screen time, i.e. demi moore and sharon stone, there characters were written very well and their acting was very believable. i really enjoyed the weaving of vintage real footage with the film footage and the set design and wardrobe were done so well that the two looked seamless together.